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The Visions Of A Macabre Mind

  By Stuart Mackay

  The Visions Of A Macabre Mind

  Stuart Mackay

  Copyright 2013 Stuart Mackay

  Life

  Life is nothing but a wondering shadow

  Standing motionless on the edge of an arrow

  On the edge of humanity, oh what a pity

  Just like the street gang killings in New York City

  What are you gonna do to fulfil your desire

  You can rise above all hope like a phoenix out of a fire

  Don’t give up on you dreams, don’t let them die

  If life is but a question you have got to ask why

  Sentimental strangers dancing barefoot in the sand

  Looking at the sun as if it’s some other land

  They have no morals, no self-control

  You live life to the limit and it will take its toll

  Look to your future and see where your destiny lies

  Turn your face to the wind and listen as it cries

  You look into your life to see where it goes

  Search your inner self from your head to your toes

  What are you gonna do when your life fades away

  Look for a new world, look for a better day

  Don’t give up your life; don’t give up on your dream

  You’ve got to be ready to hear that phoenix scream

  Illusions

  Looking around myself trying to understand what makes me laugh what makes me think

  Living life to the limit my ideas run wild but to the bottomless pit they sink

  What I do to myself, that is a question that I ask and try to understand

  I start to reflect on my past then look around Trying to find my promised land

  The white tiger runs freely, dancing and laughing prowling through the snow

  Ami like a tiger, free to do what I want or is it but a dream or a midnight show

  They say a leopard can’t change its spots but then a leopard can change its mind

  It’s all an optical illusion of the senses a sense that I can’t leave behind

  I can shout and scream but nobody is there to mastermind my fear

  To comfort me is a sin, look into my eyes and watch as I shed a tear

  What me climb, climb up the mountain where I can reach my higher plain

  Then I tumble like a dice, but that, that is what I can’t explain

  Run, run like the wind, catch the stag as it bursts into life in the misty morning air

  Then dance with the devil, see if I mind, see if I even bloody care

  Seek and you will find, cry like a child but be still, be still

  For if death is the final word then I laugh in the face all that is evil

  Strands of time

  Travelling along the strands of time

  I know my weakness and when to toe the line

  When to hide or mount an attack

  But darkness still holds me back

  A problem arrives but soon disappears

  I seek the knowledge to solve my fears

  Cowardly playing the game of live

  The devil is at my back carrying a knife

  A majestic smile beckons upon my dream

  Untold secrets are not what they seem

  Achievements are piled up in my hand

  But they slip through my fingers like grains of sand

  My fate is a barrier of self-belief

  Thriving on a challenge I act like a thief

  Gaining motivation to superfluous my quest

  I know my weakness and what I do best

  Scavenging my mind I’m always on the prowl

  Running like a headless chicken ready to throw in the towel

  The power is the ultimate and shall always be mine

  As I travel along the strands of time

  A space full of secrets

  A shooting star glides majestically through the night

  Comets cross its path on their destiny of flight

  Like an eclipse of the sun or the crying of the moon

  The cowboy is ready for his showdown at noon

  Black holes hide the secrets of a superior being

  Its mind an enigma where all is worth seeing

  A flash of inspiration or a clap of thunder

  That’s the mind-blowing question that I wonder

  Is there life on another unseen dimension?

  Has NASA found new life but are too scared to mention

  Are there aliens walking along our very own streets

  Are they the people who give our children sweets?

  Is the president of the USA from another race?

  Does he wear a mask to cover his forbidden face?

  Who are you, who is me, who are we

  Are you from another world but just act like me?

  Did you build the Stonehenge or the coliseum in Rome?

  Excuse me a minute I need to phone home

  World

  The world is an eye

  Winking at the sun and the moon

  Looking at the starts

  Gazing into outer space

  Or is it inner space

  Is the world like a speck of dust?

  Or an atom in the air

  Are we in our right dimension?

  Or is it all de ja vu

  Has this happened before?

  Like in a previous world

  Or are we the first born

  The test of time

  Promises in our own life

  Or is it ours

  Are we not machines?

  Under somebodies control

  Or has something gone wrong

  Are we but killing ourselves?

  The world sheds a tear

  The dawn before the night

  Fading like a flower that has gone out of date

  Searching for a new world before it’s too late

  Hunting high and low I look upon my quest

  Pushing out the boat, I try to prove, I try to test

  Watching the boat adrift swimming in the lake

  Sitting on the jetty I know my quest was a fake

  Wishing I was lucky or wishing I was real

  Staring at the water loneliness is all that I feel

  Surrounded by mountains that engulf me

  Problems arrive that I cannot let be

  Engulfed in myself I watch an eagle in flight

  Darkness is dawning the last glimpse of daylight

  The sun disappears the curtain has been drawn

  Darkness is everything until the break of dawn

  Mind trip

  The lights are on but there’s nobody home

  Mind drifting to a romantic weekend in Rome

  The dream is mightier than the sense of a god

  Discovering new things or is it all a fraud

  Like a solar eclipse of the mind

  The ultimate goal that you need to find

  The distinction of being number one

  Only to find it’s already been done

  You do everything right but it’s always wrong

  Why should the punishment of your dreams prolong

  A new challenge is a new destiny

  Like a river that becomes an estuary

  Problems arise but the barrier might fall

  Berlin was once halved because of a wall

  Open your eyes because the wall is gone

  But why are there clashes still going on

  You look for an easy way out of your life

  Like killing yourself doing the ultimate party trick with a knife

  Don’t do something that you will never be able to regret

  Just lie back and light
up a cigarette

  Yesterday or tomorrow

  Born out the shadows of darkness a triumphant hero or a disillusioned mind

  Pointing the finger at humanity itself fighting for the survival of mankind

  The newspapers say it was all a dream but today’s news is tomorrows yesterday

  Living life as you think is real, is it all day to day or a video replay

  Today’s dream is tomorrows reality, tomorrow is yesterday’s past

  Yesterday was all but history but history is built to last

  Wheels of my mind

  Turning the wheels of my mind

  I look forward and I look behind

  I want to know what is real

  A magical moment I can steal

  A thought an image an unseen dream

  A whispering shadow or a silent scream

  Laugh or cry I will reach my goal

  Before I hear my death bells toll

  Before my circle of life has been completely made

  My dream will be real before I have to fade

  All I ask for I will never get

  But if I do then rain isn’t wet

  Thus with a wet sunshine in the sky

  I seek permission for me to try

  To look forward and to look behind

  As I turn the wheels of my mind

  Body of ice

  So cold as if winter has turned in its frozen grave

  Eyes turn to ice but I still try to be brave

  Frozen fingers on the point of no return

  As I sit by my fire that refuses to burn

  Watching life pass me by through my iced eyes

  Can no one hear my beckoning cries?

  Help me please I can’t take this crazy pain

  I feel blood solidifying inside every vein

  My cold heart is breaking inside of me

  Give me heat that is my only plea

  But alas I can feel my energy fading away

  Will I ever see the breaking of a new day?

  Veer

  Living in a make believe world

  Life has no meaning for me

  Being controlled by some strange shaman

  But my inner self can set me free

  Moved by some unknown superior force

  I can hear its laughter but that is all

  Strange unworldly thoughts run through my head

  But they crash as every opening has a wall

  Life seems to seep out of every pore in my body

  Draining away as if someone has not paid the bill

  Gone forever life has a false reason to live

  What’s the point, no answer, but someone will

  Night

  A lone wolf howls into the silence of the night

  The masked man walks slowly in the pale moonlight

  Children sleep in their upper-class bedroom

  Black roses are now in perfect bloom

  The wind whistles along the long narrow streets

  Giving a chill to every person it meets

  So black is the night that a shadow can’t be seen

  A drunk can be heard you can tell where he has been

  Singing the blues of a woman he once knew

  But she’s gone forever what can he do

  A sudden gust of wind stops the man’s cries

  Rain appears from the clouded ironed skies

  The night is now ugly as the drunk staggers away

  Back to the insane world of working on a Saturday

  The night is now eerie as the voices can be heard

  The laughing of a husband to the wife he has just battered

  Then the children cry because they cannot sleep

  The husband plays dad while the wife can only weep

  Then the light is off and everything is still

  The night is as haunted as it ever will

  Cosmic

  Everything is cosmic so all is well

  I have a secret but I cannot tell

  I have a vision but it’s too dark to see

  Just open your mind that is my only plea

  Music is the key to the doors of the mind

  So turn on the radio and leave the emptiness behind

  Stop, everything is going too fast

  Relax chill out ah peace at last

  Think, is what I am the only thing to say

  Or is it just another cosmic day

  A smile that can turn into fear

  A day that can turn into a year

  Wasting away like a snowman in the sun

  As useful as a snail in a hundred meter run

  But all is well everything is cosmic

  Standing on my head is my party trick

  Look around, do you believe in what you see

  Is it a reality or is it but a mystery

  There’s a worm trying to eat out my brain

  Hey cosmic I’m just acting insane

  Alone

  Alone, all alone, sitting staring out a window into the black curtain of the night

  Thought running through my head with no solution no end in sight

  But why, why must my punishment prolong that is what I want to know

  A girl, love causes all this pain, throwing my heart to and fro

  Stop, please stop I can’t take anymore, my body feels like it is falling apart

  Alas she said no, that one word was like a knife piercing my heart

  A train sped through the dim light trying to escape the rise of the dawn

  Have I been here that long, submerged in self-pity like a king without a pawn?

  My disappointment has been so catastrophic that I am submerged in it

  But a new day has come to light so I can try and rise from this bottomless pit

  Today, today is to be a new day thus I am able to become a new man

  I’ll make her regret ever saying no, I’ll do everything I can

  She will weep but she will hide the fact that she ever said ne to me

  Here I sit, alone, still but I will gain superiority that is the only way it can be

  For me to reign supreme and for her to quiver like a dying leaf

  I will become the joker and she will be the mistrusted common thief

  Fulfilment

  Through the emptiness of a shadow

  The fulfilment of a dream

  A touch of ecstasy

  Like scoring a goal for your favourite football team

  Challenging the question of the unknown

  Talking to god on a mobile phone

  Trying to make your girlfriend moan

  Acting like a king upon his throne

  A hand of god or a touch of reality

  A path of destiny or a falling star

  A twist of fate is a quest for life

  But don’t push your judgement too far

  Understanding what is real and what is fake

  Choose wisely for your own sake

  Consider every opportunity you can take

  Don’t let the bubble burst or your heart break

  Bon voyage to what you have let behind

  Fulfilment is in the eye of the beer holder

  Make your life a thick book

  Not a piece of paper concealed in a folder

  Senses

  I’ve been shooting at shadows

  I’ve been dancing in the dark

  I’ve heard the birds sing

  I’ve heard the dogs bark

  I’ve seen Lucifer smile

  I’ve seen him shed a tear

  I’ve looked at the sun

  Ahhh its coming to near

  Aria

  There is a world outside your painted balloon

  As you hide behind your shadow of the eclipsed moon

  You dream of nothing because nothing is real

  You’ve lost your inspiration so you have to steal

  You talk to yourself because there is no one else there

  Nobody with feelings or someone who could care
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  You shut down your heart as you thought it was time

  But engulfing yourself in self-pity that was your crime

  Blocking out what is real is your nightmare

  But nightmares can come true so beware

  Try to imagine each new day has been created for you

  And every love song is an aspect of something new

  Drift

  Light turns to day as you float into the clouds

  Following your dream, listening to every egotistical sound

  Your mind uncontrolled as it reaches for the sky

  Too many questions as everyone asks why

  Time stands still as you gently float away

  The shape of the clouds move as you let your mind play

  Everything is marshmallow as you start to feel crazy

  Your body starts to sleep but your mind is never lazy

  Up up and away that is the only place to be

  This is your own world unlike everyone else’s misery

  Just relax as you breath in the air

  And let the sound enslave you in its lair

  Poisoned mind

  Fried eggs in a cornflake bowl

  Go through your eyes and search for your soul

  The destiny of success is for real

  I’ve met the devil and I’ve struck a deal

  I’ve seen where he killed the lonesome white dove

  I’ve seen the foot that fits like a glove

  I need to think what am I trying to say

  The world is crazy there is no other way

  Politicians live inside a fairy tale

  They think they win we know they fail

  There is no beginning to the unseen dream

  There is no way we can work as a team

  Swallow your pride

  Why do i put myself through this much pain

  I’m normally a quitter why isn’t this the same

  Why am I facing my fears instead of looking away?

  She must mean something in a crazy sort of way

  It’s time to climb out my dream and back to reality

  I must be a winner not another casualty

  What is this fear I embrace myself in, pushing my emotions to the limit

  I can’t find the right words to say or the conversation to fit

  I know what I want or rather what I need to do

  Just ask the question then the rest will be up to you

  But I’ve reached the barrier; I need to overcome the self-conscious brick wall

  Then I will know your answer but will I still be able to walk tall

  Will I be able to face you again knowing that it was simply no?

  Or will I act like a child and wherever you are I will never show

  Just to ease the punishment I have created in my mind

  I need to ask you for it is the answer that I seek to find

  Cupid’s creation

  I ask myself to tell me my true feelings about you